如此也好                                                                                “姑娘，您能回來真的是……太好了嗚嗚嗚嗚……”                                                                                沈鸞嘆氣：“怎么又哭了呢，太傷眼睛，趕緊擦擦，我這一趟也沒受什么苦，還給你帶了個姑爺回來，不算虧。”                                                                                “是秦將軍嗎？可是秦將軍早就娶了姑娘。”                                                                                “所以也不在乎再娶一次。”                                                                                沈鸞拍了拍柔軟的床榻，忽然有種想要上去滾一滾的沖動。                                                                                一旁紫煙看了一會兒，扁了扁嘴：“姑娘，你想滾一滾就滾吧，這個床你好久沒有在上面滾過了嗚嗚嗚嗚……”                                                                                沈鸞：“……”                                                                                雖然覺得有些好笑，她還是遵從本心，一下子撲上去抱著軟枕來回翻滾，心里某個地方有種踏實的滿足感溢出來。                                                                                紫煙在旁邊看著默默地流淚，一邊哭一邊給沈鸞把裙角整理好，又能看到姑娘在床上滾來滾去了，真好嗚嗚嗚。                                                                                ……                                    ．c                                                                                秦戈從沈家離開的時候，府外那些官差一個都沒走，見著他出來，立刻有人上前：“將軍，皇上還在宮里等您呢。”                                                                                秦戈只要離開沈鸞的視線，臉上的表情就與溫和毫無關系，常年在軍中浴血廝殺，不怒自威，讓人都不敢正眼去看。                                                                                他也沒反對，徑直往皇城的方向去。                                                                                御書房，外面太監進來通傳說定北將軍覲見的時候，里面凝滯的氣氛總算出現了松動。                                                                                沅凌面無表情地宣他進來，不一會兒，秦戈大步入內，高聲參見。                                                                                “愛卿免禮。”                                                                                沅凌的聲音有些硬邦邦的，“愛卿終于肯回來見見朕了？朕還以為，要見到你不知要到什么時候。”                                                                                “微臣戰后受傷，不欲讓皇上擔憂，故想尋一個山清水秀的地方自生自滅，免得動搖軍心。”                                                                                “那你如今傷又好了？”                                                                                “托皇上洪福，微臣養傷時遇見了仙女轉世，將微臣的傷都治好了。”                                                                                他面不改色地信口胡說，沅凌胸口劇烈起伏，后槽牙咬出咯吱咯吱的動靜，嚇得旁邊伺候的太監心都要停了。                                                                                沅凌一揮手，將書房里除秦戈以外的所有人統統趕出去，等門關上，他臉色一變：“沈鸞真的沒死？”                                                                                秦戈的目光凝了凝，淡然道：“那不是沈鸞，她叫夏巒，只是與沈鸞長得相似罷了。”                                                                                “你覺得這話朕會相信？”                                                                                “皇上明察，當初被國朝送去祗族和親的德賢公主，已經在半路病逝，棺槨也已送回晏城，她的死狀許多人都親眼目睹，微臣離開的時候，她分明還是好好的。”                                                                                沅凌默然，半晌長嘆一口氣：“你還是有怨氣的，朕知道，也是人之常情。”                                                                                “所以她不是沈鸞，她是一對老夫妻養大的孩子，微臣已經與她成了親，沈家名義上將她認作五姑娘，僅此而已。”                                                                                沅凌久久地看了他一會兒，忽而垂眸，“如此，也好。”                                                                                沈文韶十分出類拔萃，卓爾不群，沈家在國朝地位日益穩固，秦戈又是戰功赫赫，沈秦兩家聯姻，難免有人會擔心權勢集中在他們手里，但如果秦戈娶的只是個養女，似乎就沒什么關系。                                                                                “皇上，微臣在回來的路上，聽聞皇上要立皇后，此乃國之幸事，那群老臣也該欣慰。”                                                                                沅凌抬起頭，有些欲言又止：“關于此事，朕正要與你細說……”                                                                                書房門外，太監細聲細氣的聲音傳進來：“皇上，甄皇太妃來了，說想見定北將軍。”                                                                                沅凌與秦戈對視了一眼，心里明白她是為何而來，“既然皇太妃要見你，你就先去見一見，至于其他的事情，稍后再說也不遲。”                                                                                沅凌身為皇上去，心里卻還是將秦戈當做從前教導自己武學的秦大哥，關于皇后一事，他竟有些逃避，能拖一會兒是一會兒。                                                                                秦戈察覺到他的意思也沒多說什么，告退出去去見了甄皇太妃。                                                                                甄皇太妃一如秦戈記憶中絕色美麗，只是看得出比起從前明顯要衰老一些，沈鸞病逝的消息讓她纏綿病榻，一心求死，靠著無數貴重的藥材才救回來。                                                                                她見到秦戈立刻屏退下人，起身沖到秦戈面前，眼睛里閃爍著期待和渴望。                                                                                “秦戈，阿鸞還活著是不是？她還好好的是不是？”                                                                                甄皇太妃急于求證，聲音在不停地發抖。                                                                                秦戈能在沅凌面前瞎說八道，但面對甄皇太妃，他的回答還是中規中矩：“她……中了毒，不記得從前過往，不過人還是好好的，與從前一樣樂觀開朗。”                                                                                甄皇太妃捂著嘴，淚水奪眶而出。                                                                                多少次她想著就這樣隨阿鸞而去，她是個失敗的母親，從來沒為阿鸞做過些什么，沅凌既已登基，她也沒什么好顧慮，只是總有人不想她死，不停地告訴她只要活著，也許就能等到奇跡。                                                                                如今，奇跡真的出現，可那些罪阿鸞也沒有少受。                                                                                “她如今是沈家認的五姑娘，不再受身份束縛，微臣會好好待她，太妃娘娘放心。”                                                                                甄皇太妃擦干凈眼淚，看著面前眼神堅定的男子，他幫阿鸞報了仇，他違抗圣命銷聲匿跡去找阿鸞，若不是他，阿鸞沒那么容易被找到，不知道還要漂泊多久。                                                                                “我很放心，我也……沒有資格不放心……”                                                                                甄皇太妃的神情松塌下來，美目低垂，似是全然放下了什么，無欲無求。                                                                                阿鸞還活著，此生她能知道這個消息就已經足夠，往后余生，她也不會再有別的念想。                                                                                “你是知曉阿鸞的身世，此事，就只當從未有過，皇家富貴，卻也像是一個深淵，她該離得遠遠的，越遠越好……”                                                                                曾經，甄皇太妃心底藏著隱隱的期待，盼著此生是否有機會能認回阿鸞，在她被賜封公主的時候，甄皇太妃焦慮過，卻也竊喜過，可公主的頭銜給沈鸞帶來的，卻是滅頂之災。                                                                                她什么都不再奢求，她不會再向沈鸞靠近半步，能遠遠的，隱隱約約地聽到她過得好，甄皇太妃，便此生無憾。                                                                                見過甄皇太妃之后，秦戈立刻出宮回家。                                                                                廣陽侯府大門敞開，下人翹首期盼，看到秦戈之后，風一樣竄回去通傳：“回來了回來了！”